Awkward as fuck. I forgave her, and I think she's forgiven me. We agreed that we'd meet again, when she's ok with it. I don't think we're ready for it.
I can't imagine it'd be easy to talk to someone you remember stabbing you every night. I'm still having dreams of the execution, so I'm sure she's doing the same.
What? Actually killing her? Yes, though I regret more that I didn't lock myself up, knowing it might happen. I really wasn't in my right mind at the time.
And you're not wrong. She probably won't hold it against me. Much. She's not actually a saint.
I admit, I thought about trying to get you to. But I also knew you could probably have gotten away from me before I got too far with that. And I hoped I was being too paranoid, anyway.
None of us are saints. Not in this place. Best we can do is try for the next best thing.
As much as I wish to say it would have helped, I admit that I also know Varian got loose. My illusions might have tricked the staff just long enough. I'm not sure if it would have worked, but I wish I tried. This place was hell bent on us having it out.
Qrow's promised he's going to sit on my shoulder if something like this happens agin. I'm not going to argue with that.
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Date: 2020-08-13 02:53 am (UTC)I'm glad you let me know.
I'm feeling a lot of shit. But I'm glad you're not dead anymore.
What did you and Ruby say?
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Date: 2020-08-13 03:34 am (UTC)I forgave her, and I think she's forgiven me.
We agreed that we'd meet again, when she's ok with it.
I don't think we're ready for it.
I can't imagine it'd be easy to talk to someone you remember stabbing you every night.
I'm still having dreams of the execution, so I'm sure she's doing the same.
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Date: 2020-08-22 01:30 am (UTC)[There's a pause between texts, and then:]
Do you regret doing it?
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Date: 2020-08-23 09:12 pm (UTC)Yes, though I regret more that I didn't lock myself up, knowing it might happen.
I really wasn't in my right mind at the time.
And you're not wrong.
She probably won't hold it against me.
Much.
She's not actually a saint.
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Date: 2020-08-28 04:44 am (UTC)I admit, I thought about trying to get you to. But I also knew you could probably have gotten away from me before I got too far with that. And I hoped I was being too paranoid, anyway.
None of us are saints. Not in this place. Best we can do is try for the next best thing.
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Date: 2020-08-28 09:34 pm (UTC)My illusions might have tricked the staff just long enough.
I'm not sure if it would have worked, but I wish I tried.
This place was hell bent on us having it out.
Qrow's promised he's going to sit on my shoulder if something like this happens agin.
I'm not going to argue with that.
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Date: 2020-09-02 03:59 am (UTC)I just really fucking hope they don't do this again so we don't have to go through all this another time.
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Date: 2020-09-02 01:09 pm (UTC)And yes. Let's hope that whatever problems we have don't have to be this again. That would be lovely.